Days are flying by during this Christmas season. Cards and gifts have been piling in, with one of the best gifts of all, Matt being home from the hospital. Today is Ivy's birthday and the celebrating started well before 7am. As the girls and I were running out the door to meet friends for a birthday brunch, there were loads of presents by our front door and a birthday present for Ivy, all without a card. When we got to brunch, my friend Kelli handed me an anonymous card with money in it for our family. We had breakfast that I didn't even pay for, we met with friends this afternoon who spoiled my family. I got the mail and there was an anonymous gift card to the grocery store in my mailbox. We have more presents tomorrow than what we would have had if Matt was healthy and working.
As we were driving home this afternoon, I started praying, feeling so overwhelmed at the love and blessings being given to our family. It feels so undeserved. I talked to the girls about reasons why we think the Lord has been giving over and abundantly to us, explaining to them that we don't deserve any of it. There are people whose family members are sick, people who work so hard for their money and never get ahead, who struggle and stress about how to provide a present for their kids.
Then I started thinking about all of the things that Jesus does for us on a daily basis. He came to earth as a baby, sinless and died on the cross for my sin. He offers forgiveness to me on a daily basis. He cares, protects, and is faithful. He works things for my good all the time, some things I notice and some I don't and take for granted. He takes my anger and frustration when I am overwhelmed and gives me blessing in return.
My husband here, living, home for Christmas was more than enough. The rest is icing. Honestly, I still don't know what to do with it all. I am overwhelmed. God is gracious, loving and kind. I am coming out of the hardest week and a half that I've had since the beginning of this trial and He helped me make it through. I told Ivy that sometimes Jesus gives us the things that we dread to show us that He is with us, we can make it. We will overcome. Today I sit overwhelmed by His kindness and the kindness of others. Thank you for loving my family. Thank you Father for not only Your provision but the abundance of it. We don't deserve it, don't deserve You. I'm feeling blessed and it's not even Christmas yet.
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